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  • Kiery Actually Does College

    Kiery Actually Does College

    I started taking college prep courses in January, which I’ve written about most of the few times that I’ve actually gotten around to writing this year. The week before last week I took the college placement test in english and got a near perfect score (98 & 99, out of 99) and placed into english…

  • On College and Clothes that Fit

    On College and Clothes that Fit

    I took the placement test for adult basic education at my community college. I have an ID that says student and not “weird strange haired person who doesn’t belong: immediately escort out” on it, and an orientation on the 15th where I’ll find out where I placed and can sign up for classes to start…

  • {I matter}

    I don’t have to be productive 24/7. All that matters is that I take care of myself – everything else will follow. I matter. Because my body is remembering it has a uterus for the first time in almost 6 months and even though it’s still worlds better than it was untreated, it still…..fucks me…

  • Past Selfies

    Past Selfies

    I’m tired of looking at pictures of myself from last year, or even a few years before, and thinking “damn I looked good then!” while simultaneously remembering how stressed out I was about my body, and about gaining weight, and….how I was very rarely able to just be okay with it. It’s a patten I’ve…

  • What is Sex When You Have Vaginismus?

    It’s not something I talk about much, it’s not something anyone talks about much because there’s so much weight to it. I’ve spent the last 5, almost 6 years that I’ve been sexually active trying to deal with the shame and confusion that comes from having a condition that makes penis-in-vagina sex painful, if not…

  • trigger(ed by SCOTUS and Hobby Lobby): a semi-tipsy sad muse time

    trigger(ed by SCOTUS and Hobby Lobby): a semi-tipsy sad muse time

    I feel like I just got punched in the stomach. Today is really triggering a lot of not-good feelings. I hate how having a body… this female-assigned body tends to affect my life and future.   I hate being reminded about how my body dictates or rather I hate how my body is dictated by…

  • Realizations

    Realizations

    *There is no coherent flow to this, that’s why it’s numbered. Just needed to let these escape my head, so hopefully I can kill this migraine now. I was remembering some things, about being homeschooled – with a few years of distance the ridiculousness of some of it has been made obvious, but I also…

  • On Femininity

    On Femininity

    Good Homeschooled Girls are supposed to be perfect. They’re supposed to be Pollyanna, Elsie Dinsmore, and Jane Bennet.  They’re supposed to be completely innocent, unnoticed, modest, graceful, but still look beautiful and unblemished (while not thinking too hard about it). Good Homeschooled Girls are impossible. All of us are wearing masks, we’re all acting feminine, we’re…

  • This is what I deal with.

    This is what I deal with.

    Gee, thanks uterus, you’re swell. I can’t imagine why you don’t have more friends.

  • Becoming Geek

    Becoming Geek

    Not so long ago, I was one of those really unsocialized homeschoolers who couldn’t hold up a conversation about Harry Potter but could tell you about ANWR (Alaskan National Wildlife Refuge), domestic (oil) drilling, and how little control our federal government really has over the control of oil prices. I’d only ever played racing video…