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  • uterus = null

    uterus = null

    Monday I had a complete hysterectomy. I got to Mt. Zion hospital at 5:45am, surgery started around 8am, I was out at 11:30 and discharged around noon. Then I went on a really bumpy car ride to Concord, where I am resting and marathoning Harry Potter all week. My surgery was laparoscopic so it was…

  • Take that, uterus! (empowering myself, because I don't need to feel this way every month)

    Take that, uterus! (empowering myself, because I don't need to feel this way every month)

    So. I talked to my clinic and after two years off birth control and trying to get my body back in shape (with, eh, results) and realizing that it’s actually like, still debilitatingly painful – and painkillers don’t always work – and that I’m tired of freaking out every time I’m a day late, and…

  • Nature (Trauma) is Healing

    Nature (Trauma) is Healing

    I’ve been experiencing a lot of headaches trying to do basic things like get my brain meds filled in Germany. There are rules like only certain types of general doctors can prescribe anti-depressants or anti-anxiety medications, only certain kinds of doctors can prescribe testosterone, and of course only psychiatrists can prescribe ADHD meds. On top…

  • The Scars I Choose

    The Scars I Choose

    I’ve been quiet here but this year has been a ride. At the beginning of the year I got referred to the trans clinic at Kaiser and referred for top and bottom surgery (double incision bilateral mastectomy with nipple graph/ metoidioplasty with urethral lengthening and scrotoplasty). Naturally there’s a pretty big backlog because it was…

  • More Feelings I Guess

    More Feelings I Guess

    On the interwebs I’ve been doing some of the goofy “it’s been a decade, what’s the then/now of __________” memes. The decade of hair is one of my faves. In a lot of ways I still struggle with feeling inadequate or incompetent because I feel behind my peers on so many levels. That sense of…

  • 30 Months on T

    30 Months on T

    Last March I wrote a 15 month synopsis of what it’s been like on HRT: I wanted to write another in December when I hit my 2 year anniversary but that occurred over finals week and never happened, so here we are. 30 months on T! Weight Changes: After my Hysto I lost about 4lbs,…

  • 10 years

    10 years

    The 28th marks both my golden birthday and my 10th escape-versary. I’ve felt the amount of introspection and existential questioning I feel like most people reserve for their 30th, but this year feels more significant somehow. Ten years feels both like an eternity and also yesterday. I’ve spent a lot of time talking about where…

  • Hysto Date!

    Hysto Date!

    HOLY SHIT. I’ve been wanting  needing to get my uterus out for years. I have talked to so many doctors about this, and about sterilization before that. I will document the process that I went through to get here later, but the big news is: Monday, July 30th, 2018, at 9:30am I will be undergoing…

  • Just T Things: 15 Months HRT

    Just T Things: 15 Months HRT

    I realized it would probably be helpful to me and other people if I started documenting what HRT is like for me somewhere more findable than twitter. It’s been almost 15 months now, but I haven’t detailed a lot here so I’m going to attempt to categorize the various points of change. Weight Changes: When…

  • It me, a trans boi

    It me, a trans boi

    I didn’t know I was trans until my mid 20’s. I didn’t have the language or the context to explain what I felt growing up. My writing over the last 8 years has actually thoroughly documented parts of that process. Coming to terms with my gender and what that means to me. I spent my…